The most horrid things one could experience…

I

had to fall and lose it all. In the end, it doesn't even matter.

I woke up with Sanju's alarm in his phone. He wasn't there. I told him several times to change the music, but he preferred linkin park the most.

I checked the bathroom and he wasn't there either. Probably he would have gone for a jog along the hostel ground. I didn't mind that, and just went inside to take bath.

Well after that, I did see him on the bed untying his shoe lace.

'Hey, Mr. Perfect! Whattabout ur tie man?'

'Ah? Dude, I seriously don't understand why the heck you are jogging knowing that we have a campus interview. We are already going late and I asked you to keep the alarm an hour early and look what you have done. I just didn't mind you where there are not, I, well was busy.'

'Chill dude, you aren't gonna lose your life just not having passing this interview, eh?'

'Hey, come on! Just wake up! Didn't you realize that this the best company in United States? And if you were working in the company, you would become a millionaire soon!'

'Who cares?'

'What do you mean by who cares?'

'Just live the life you've got. Be happy and enjoy to the core. That's the way to enjoy things around you!'

I smirked at him and just minded my work. I have just an hour left with many works that include eating and walking to the college for forty five minutes.

*

'I'm so sorry, I just can't come. I have this interview to attend, you know how important it is right?'

'K, fine I do, but this is a life matter. If you aren't coming with me, then whom shall I go with to the hospital that is like seventeen kilometers away?'

'I do feel very sorry for your mother, but Sanju, understand. This is not a situation where I can come. My whole ambition from the first year was to join this company and to be settled in US. I just can't leave this opportunity. I have been crying for this everyday to God, and this is holy time where the God has gifted me with things I loved. Though your demands are fully reasonable, I just can't. I love you and your mother. Not that I act so. I do. I do it more than my step father. I thrive with your mother's blessing when she gave me for carrying your sister out of the house when your house was in ruins. I never say I forgot the things that happened like the one I just told at the time of earthquake. I would like to save your mother from another disaster she is suffering now, but I couldn't. I just can't.'

'Is that your ultimate answer?'

'I regret.'

There was a pause for a minute and we were looking at each other's faces till he realized there was something for him to speak apart from whining.

'I regret too. It made sense when I called you to my mom and said for the first time that you were my friend at the first month of the first year. I regret. What made me say you were my friend at that time? Was it natural or forced to be done so? I regret. What made you say you got my mother's blessing? You think blessing is something you get whenever you want? Or is it that I was a fool? I regret more.'

'Don't make me cry'

'Don't make me cry more'

'Oh no, just stop saying you regret. Am I the only person found in this universe?'

'You are the only person to help'

'I can't do anything but just to drop you there'

'You are the only person to help me reach there'

'Well, a bus driver or a taxi man could do that'

'You are the only person to help me reach there quickly.'

'I may drive fast. It doesn't mean that I could drive on the roads of Delhi and at this peak time of traffic!'

'You are the only person to help me reach there quickly to see my mother.'

Pause

I can't, I just can't. I had to tell

'Nothing changes in my mind now and will never'

'I guess that's the answer'

'Good guess'

He just called a taxi and got into it without saying where he is supposed to go to, to the taxi man and just did not even see me. He was crying silently to himself and looked at his feet. He never turned and looked at me. I did not realize that would be the last time I would see him. I heard a car crash and so I turned back to look at the most horrible sight ever seen by any one in their life…

I forced myself to sleep on the following night

*

The next morning I felt something unusual. I could feel the weight of a hand on my shoulder. I turned back to see...

I had no words to speak

'What? I'm so sorry, I put my hand by mistake, Ok?' said Sanju.